Everyone Feels that Way Sometimes...

I feel like I've copped out.

 I've tried so very hard to keep my blog afloat, but I don't know if it's the right fit for me anymore. When I started my blog last spring, I was a completely different person. I was still in high school, still aspiring to be a doctor, and had a lot of spare time on my hands. I was able to put all of my effort and heart into establishing my blog and promoting it as well as finding subjects to actually write about. Now a days I'm working 7 hour days at work and I find I'm working on other pursuits during my free time. While at college I learned that I was actually a pretty good poet and joined a band thus those being my main pursuits now a days. I also want to work on my art and photography which I've been neglecting as of late. 

I don't know anymore. I've been so confused. I love fashion but I no longer feel like I can maintain a fashion blog. However, I still love blogging. So I'm still going to use my Tumblr to post things I like, and original poetry, art, music and photography. Here's the link. 

I don't know if this will be my last post, I hope not. 

Times I wish I were so small,

Invisible to the naked eye

Or maybe I should be so large,

So I could blend in with the sky.

To know it all would be too much,

But to know nothing would be a bore.

I catch myself acting one way,

But tomorrow I can be someone more.

Close my eyes, Wild Beasts in dreams,

My bed clothes tearing at the seams.

Which way does the tower lean?

Towards the wood! What does that mean?

-Catherine "The Girl in the Paper Dress"

Listening to: "Everyone Feel That Way Sometimes" by Computer Magic

Your last daydream is slowly unreeling...

My sister Anna rocking out to something...

Listening to "The Heart in Your Heartbreak" by The Pains of Being Pure at Heart

Listening to "Lewis Takes Action" by Owen Pallet

Me!

So I'm here in Jersey after a less than scenic three hour car ride. It was eventful; I compulsively took pictures in the car, saw an 18 wheeler go up in flames, and my sister forgot to put the cap on the gas tank. But in the end we all made it back in one piece and now I'm eating an overpriced yet delicious meal.

Lobster Macaroni

Yummy Calimari

After we had some free time before meeting the guys so we walked around the Asbury Park Boardwalk. It's very strange to walk up and down the boardwalk because you can just imagine what used to be there. The abandoned Casino was once filled with people and the boardwalk was Bustling with tourists from the city. Now the boardwalk is basically empty and the building are abandoned. However there is still beauty there. I love old abandoned buildings so it was this was the perfect place for a photo shoot. Actually inside the abandoned casino there were a few really cool murals that were perfect.

Beautiful and sad quote

Anna's Outfit:
Dress: H&M
Shoes: Forever 21
Purse: H&M
Necklace: MINE!

Dress: H&M
Purse: H&M
Shoes: H&M
Thesis: I spend too much money at H&M

The funny thing is that I'm actually typing this on my iPhone so I can keep consistent with my blogging. However it is quite annoying due to the fact that blogger is super slow and non functional in mobile web. Do any of you know of any good iPhone blogging apps? But for now I'm standing outside of a jazz club with the band ignoring them and typing, my fat thumbs fumbling about. I admit this is a bit socially inept but then again, when else will I find time to do this. But I think I'm done now, and I will be adding pictures and posting this tomorrow.

Listening to: The Body by The Pains of Being Pure at Heart

Sheila Take A Bow, La La La, La La La La La

Hello again. Look! I posted again. Hopefully this isn't a passing trend.

Dress: Darling @ asos.com
Shoes: Vintage Nine West
Ring: Forever 21

So today I decided to take it easy. I slept in until nine, not too shabby. Sleeping in is one of the few luxurieees I enjoy as an unemployed college student durring a summer off. Actually it's probably the only luxury I'm able to have because everything takes money now a days and I only have $32.74 in my checking and $52.40 in my savings. I have been playing alot of shows but I'm not seeing any of the money yet... so I'm broke. At least I don't have to pay rent, or for food (unless it is not provided by mi familia). Being poor isn't fun. :(

Now that I think about it the other luxury of being unemployed is having spare time and a very flexable schedule. Which is perfect for the band, expecially since my sister and I are always driving back and forth from Jersey. Blah. As much as I like the band thing, always going to a place I'm not familiar with, where I have no friends besides my bandmates, is kind of disheartening. Oh well, I guess it's part of the job.

Here's a list of shows again:

Wednesday July 6th, Langosta Lounge

Asbury Park, NJ

Thursday July 7th, Trinity and the Pope

Asbury Park, NJ

Friday July 8th, Mill Creek Tavern

Philadelphia

Saturday July 9th, Arlene's Grocery

New York City

I really appreciate you guys in the fashion blogging world. And if you can come out and see me play one of my shows. It would mean so much to me!

I guess this is too much complaining and not enough fashion. Or is it okay that this whole post isn't fashion concerned. Truthfully I'm not all fashion. It's only one facet of my life. I play music (which takes up most of my time), I make art, I read, I'm great at math. Should a personal fashion blog be just be about fashion? I don't know.

And if you read my whole post... Thanks <3

Listening to: Sheila Take A Bow by The Smiths
~~Tip: Listen to the Smiths while your upset, it really helps ~~

The Blues are Still Blue... (my first real post in a very long time)

Look what I did... I acually posted as promised!

Right now I am sitting infront of my computer as I watch Twin Peaks on Netflix and eat an egg salad sandwich. What a wonderful way to start out the Fourth of July.



Dress: Vintage
Shoes: Forever 21

 Before any of this happened though I got all dolled up and took a few outfit pictures before the heat became unbearable. I had the perfect outfit for this festive day. I actually got this vintage dress freshman year of highschool, actually it was first authentic vintage dress. The greatest thing is that it still fits. And truthfully I can't think of anything else to say right now. I'll come up with something. My head is currently swimming with visions of fireworks and hot dogs  and swimming, and the exciting happenings in Twin Peaks...

By the way this is actually my first time wearing these espadrilles. I got them a while ago but I never wear heels, they are just to restrictive for my everyday running around. Unfortunatley, I love buying heels so maybe I should put them into good use...

What else to talk about let's see... Well on Wednesday I'm heading to New Jersey to see  a few friends, and play a few shows with my band. Fun stuff right? Actually it's a tremendous amount of fun and our band sounds fantastic. Really. If you haven't read any of my recent posts my band is called, "Underwater Country Club" and we have a fan page on the Facebook. And if you can, come to one of our shows. They are so much fun. What I'm really excited for is Saturday's show in New York City at a venue called Arlene's Grocery. The Strokes played one of their first shows there. We actually played there in the winter, but they liked us so much that we were called back for their best of night. Here's the link to the event if you want to go (It's 21+) LINK. Here's a list of our shows in the next week, see if you can come out for one of them, maybe even shoot me an e-mail for more info:

Wednesday July 6th, Langosta Lounge

Asbury Park, NJ

Thursday July 7th, Trinity and the Pope

Asbury Park, NJ

Friday July 8th, Mill Creek Tavern

Philadelphia

Saturday July 9th, Arlene's Grocery

New York City

So I guess this is goodbye. Until tomorrow...

Listening to: The Blues are Still Blue by Belle and Sebastian

You're the one for me, you make me so very happy...

 

I'm back...

After an extended hiatus I have returned to the fashion blogging world. While I can't claim I'm back and better than ever, today, in the whole process of putting together and outfit, talking outfit pictures and blogging about it, I realized how much I've missed this. I haven't done an outfit post since October. OCTOBER!!! I've had a difficult time lately finding out who I am in this wildly confusing time of young adulthood. I'm no longer a child, and not quite an adult. Just in limbo somewhere in the middle. Where I am in that vast gap between the two stages is what has been confusing me so.

If you haven't read my blog in a few months let me recap for you on my college experience...

I went through three roommates, made a bunch of friends, cut my hair, lost a bunch of friends, made a few best friends, gained the freshen 15, lost the freshman fifteen, tried to fit in, realized it was alright to stand out, joined a rock band, dropped my Biology major, discovered I was a pretty good poet, acquired an appreciation for geometric abstraction, cut my hair even shorter, decided to double major in English and Math, started writing songs, and died my hair blonde....

This year I have had to make a few really hard decisions in my life. One of the biggest was to stay at my college. Truthfully I don't enjoy it much. People there just don't get me, just pass me off as weird, or even worse, think that I'm aloof. It's a very homogeneous population, everyone’s the same. If someone is a bit different everyone notices and comments. It's frustrating to not be able to feel comfortable being who you are. However I've decided to stay there for one more year because 1) I have a scholarship and 2) my sister is there. And there are nice people there; I just had to get through a few rotten people to find the sweetest.  

Also this year I joined a band, Underwater Country Club where I play the cello. I wouldn't admit it to anyone (people mistake my introverted nature for boredom), but it's the most fun I've ever had. The music is great, the people are great, and the whole experience has made me a more independent person. You can buy our music on iTunes (though I'm not on that record), but our current music is a bit different now, with the addition of the violin and the cello, it's more of... how do I describe it... chamber indie rock. Think Ra Ra Riot, the Smashing Pumpkins, and a bit of Squeeze. We're doing a bunch of shows this summer so if you are in the Philly, New Jersey, NYC, or CT area, come and see one of our shows! It would be so much fun to see you guys at one of my shows. And they're usually free so that's even better. Now, not to sound like I’m promoting myself, but here's the website. And all of our other links (like twitter and Facebook) and shows dates are on there. This will be fun!

Top: Urban Outfitters

Skirt: Forever 21

Hat: Forever 21

Shoes: Steve Madden

Ring: Vintage

Listening to: Happy by Best Coast

ALSO!!! Vote for my band in this poll pretty please!