Everyone Feels that Way Sometimes...

I feel like I've copped out.

 I've tried so very hard to keep my blog afloat, but I don't know if it's the right fit for me anymore. When I started my blog last spring, I was a completely different person. I was still in high school, still aspiring to be a doctor, and had a lot of spare time on my hands. I was able to put all of my effort and heart into establishing my blog and promoting it as well as finding subjects to actually write about. Now a days I'm working 7 hour days at work and I find I'm working on other pursuits during my free time. While at college I learned that I was actually a pretty good poet and joined a band thus those being my main pursuits now a days. I also want to work on my art and photography which I've been neglecting as of late. 

I don't know anymore. I've been so confused. I love fashion but I no longer feel like I can maintain a fashion blog. However, I still love blogging. So I'm still going to use my Tumblr to post things I like, and original poetry, art, music and photography. Here's the link. 

I don't know if this will be my last post, I hope not. 

Times I wish I were so small,

Invisible to the naked eye

Or maybe I should be so large,

So I could blend in with the sky.

To know it all would be too much,

But to know nothing would be a bore.

I catch myself acting one way,

But tomorrow I can be someone more.

Close my eyes, Wild Beasts in dreams,

My bed clothes tearing at the seams.

Which way does the tower lean?

Towards the wood! What does that mean?

-Catherine "The Girl in the Paper Dress"

Listening to: "Everyone Feel That Way Sometimes" by Computer Magic

Your last daydream is slowly unreeling...

My sister Anna rocking out to something...

Listening to "The Heart in Your Heartbreak" by The Pains of Being Pure at Heart

Listening to "Lewis Takes Action" by Owen Pallet

Me!

So I'm here in Jersey after a less than scenic three hour car ride. It was eventful; I compulsively took pictures in the car, saw an 18 wheeler go up in flames, and my sister forgot to put the cap on the gas tank. But in the end we all made it back in one piece and now I'm eating an overpriced yet delicious meal.

Lobster Macaroni

Yummy Calimari

After we had some free time before meeting the guys so we walked around the Asbury Park Boardwalk. It's very strange to walk up and down the boardwalk because you can just imagine what used to be there. The abandoned Casino was once filled with people and the boardwalk was Bustling with tourists from the city. Now the boardwalk is basically empty and the building are abandoned. However there is still beauty there. I love old abandoned buildings so it was this was the perfect place for a photo shoot. Actually inside the abandoned casino there were a few really cool murals that were perfect.

Beautiful and sad quote

Anna's Outfit:
Dress: H&M
Shoes: Forever 21
Purse: H&M
Necklace: MINE!

Dress: H&M
Purse: H&M
Shoes: H&M
Thesis: I spend too much money at H&M

The funny thing is that I'm actually typing this on my iPhone so I can keep consistent with my blogging. However it is quite annoying due to the fact that blogger is super slow and non functional in mobile web. Do any of you know of any good iPhone blogging apps? But for now I'm standing outside of a jazz club with the band ignoring them and typing, my fat thumbs fumbling about. I admit this is a bit socially inept but then again, when else will I find time to do this. But I think I'm done now, and I will be adding pictures and posting this tomorrow.

Listening to: The Body by The Pains of Being Pure at Heart

Sheila Take A Bow, La La La, La La La La La

Hello again. Look! I posted again. Hopefully this isn't a passing trend.

Dress: Darling @ asos.com
Shoes: Vintage Nine West
Ring: Forever 21

So today I decided to take it easy. I slept in until nine, not too shabby. Sleeping in is one of the few luxurieees I enjoy as an unemployed college student durring a summer off. Actually it's probably the only luxury I'm able to have because everything takes money now a days and I only have $32.74 in my checking and $52.40 in my savings. I have been playing alot of shows but I'm not seeing any of the money yet... so I'm broke. At least I don't have to pay rent, or for food (unless it is not provided by mi familia). Being poor isn't fun. :(

Now that I think about it the other luxury of being unemployed is having spare time and a very flexable schedule. Which is perfect for the band, expecially since my sister and I are always driving back and forth from Jersey. Blah. As much as I like the band thing, always going to a place I'm not familiar with, where I have no friends besides my bandmates, is kind of disheartening. Oh well, I guess it's part of the job.

Here's a list of shows again:

Wednesday July 6th, Langosta Lounge

Asbury Park, NJ

Thursday July 7th, Trinity and the Pope

Asbury Park, NJ

Friday July 8th, Mill Creek Tavern

Philadelphia

Saturday July 9th, Arlene's Grocery

New York City

I really appreciate you guys in the fashion blogging world. And if you can come out and see me play one of my shows. It would mean so much to me!

I guess this is too much complaining and not enough fashion. Or is it okay that this whole post isn't fashion concerned. Truthfully I'm not all fashion. It's only one facet of my life. I play music (which takes up most of my time), I make art, I read, I'm great at math. Should a personal fashion blog be just be about fashion? I don't know.

And if you read my whole post... Thanks <3

Listening to: Sheila Take A Bow by The Smiths
~~Tip: Listen to the Smiths while your upset, it really helps ~~